zko

2010-10-20T20:16:00.002+08:00

what will happen if you wake up and realise you lost someone you loved dearly?

how are you gonna accept it?

will be able to say goodbye?

how you feel when you see me again after so many months

2010-09-30T01:45:00.001+08:00

bang! =)
You come back for F1 not for me! I HATE YOU.
But i love you cause you again used up your precious time here for me! :D

1st FAIL

2010-08-08T11:16:00.002+08:00

dear zk,

Welcome back to real life. living in the virtual land while everyone worry for you is not good okay!
I have nothing to type dude!! i kept deleting things that i typed.... =.= can we just NOT have this weird blog about us thing?!??!?! sso weird. and . .. awkward!

see yoU!

Born.

2010-07-17T22:08:00.003+08:00

because someone missed me so much i decided to get the nurse to type down for me.

Dear Girl.

Doc says I seems to be getting better & when i am strong enough to withstand the next operation, i hope that you are ready to come over. Oh fat hope. ):( please promise me one thing, you will wait for me as you promised. when i am ready to return to your side, you are ready to open up to me.

For now, I just want you to stay happy and don't worry too much for me. I am sorry that i have lied to you for the past months. I know you could have just ignored me, but since you did not :) means something.. i think.
I seems to be talking to myself... okay, the nurse is smiling as she is typing this down for me. sounds weird. anyway. not going to say too much right now, not that private for me to write personal stuffs.

thanks for everything & ..
ps. I miss you.

blue for u
you have got the password, so just blog for me. so that i can read and perhaps get well. ;)

2010-04-01T23:26:00.001+08:00

blogging .

a little late but went taiwan when my dearest went there. managed to find her on some day :)

happy with it. though it might be rather short.

back to Jap again. Life as usual. Hope to get back soon.

HERS

2009-12-24T21:13:00.002+08:00

FInALLY the CHANCE IS HERE.

JUST A WEEK MORE AND what i had always wanted for u, what i always wished for will come true.

You make my life more interesting, more lively, more meaningful & definitely you make me what i am today.

If being selfish is a good thing, i am doing a good thing RIGHT NOW.

I will never let it go

2009-12-10T01:22:00.003+08:00

it is really happy to post this.

perhaps i can say this proudly now.

My girl. has given me the chance after 31st dec. she is gonna let go of everything that has always been with her for 2 yrs. She will let go the feelings. .and i am now in the position to be the one to love and care for her.

I will love her. and care for her. i swear.

long ago

2009-11-06T01:13:00.003+08:00

this is a really long time since i last post... smth.. here.
basically.. life is just the same.. only that i am in NEW YORK..

life here is great.. the fun, the gals, the parties we have over here...

just had halloween fun..

and springing surprises on my dearest..

i really wish we can get back together... i miss you.. so much..
you rejected pierre as i know.. but . . there is still someone you like..
why is it that you can have someone in your heart for so long yet... as your ex-bf... i left your heart so easily...

sometimes i really wonder... why am i so ... in love with you when you dun give a damn to me.

i am a bastard.
a thick-skin bastard.

am i.

2009-05-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

i guess i never dream of losing you when we were always having great time together.
we are always friends, brothers, whatever you wan to call it.
I am always there for u
and you are always there for me to talk to.
I need you but you don't.
We never had a chance to be together as couple, and i know i will never find someone that can replace you but one day...

I wish you are here right now to tell me, you can stay by my side forever.
I never had a chance to tell you i really want to be with you as someone whom you treasure the most in your heart because i know the person you really like isn't me and i really hate it when someone actually gave up the chance you give just like that.

5 years may be a long time when all of us would have changed and move on.
i won't forget the time we had together and how much i treasure it.
BUT i really have to let go and i will let go.
i shall not be contacting you the moment i leave. emails will not be sent like what i always did.
i will miss you.

i will always be.

baby.

to my gang:
you guys are awesome bunch of people that I will never forget and some of you are coming with me to study in NEW YORK. but well... some of you aren't coming.
all the best to all of you.
fQ, xiiaoting,stef, jean, ah B, joseph, vincent, you peeps are hard-core!
damn HARD CORE! BIRthDAY bashEs. i never GONNA FORGET!
and i guess you guys and gals wont forget my drunK kisSes!
xiiaoting, you are my awesome drunk mate! i kiss, you hug!
we are the best partner.
FQ, we are Best frens, best buds, i really hate saying this but I feel like killing you when we are actually over the same person. But i know i can count on u. and vincent, take care of my baby when i am away.
it's just gonna be 5 years. so see ya!

2009-04-24T18:32:00.003+08:00

birthday party starting soon.

thanks girls for helping in my deco..
and thanks beez for ur special note..HA.
i swear i wont be drunk tonight, and i will give you a call early tomorrow! make sure u wake up.

all right.. gtg.. party gonna start! can't wait! :]

2009-02-21T01:36:00.002+08:00

just arrived.
met up with the people to go have fun.

suddenly had stomach ache.. already in bed for 2 hours.

beez, i understand ur feeling now.
oh, hope u had fun @BBQ...sad though.. i cant go .

guys, u are really crazY!

2009-02-12T14:58:00.002+08:00

close
so close...
almost forget to book... :P been here for weeks i think..
may come back for snow season. :D

if only can kidnap Beez( baby's NEW NICK) over here to play with me, i think i will just be stuck here.

2009-02-06T22:54:00.002+08:00

ok. here's the post.

not sure when to return to singapore.. juz staying here to live thru cny...
everyday just driving round tokyo city..going here and there..
went to shinjuku area just now... bought some stuffs.. getting valentines stuff here.. LOADs of ppl emailing me things to buy..U GUYS ah...

too bored @aunt's house, so i decided to book into a hotel tomorrow to have a different living conditions :D
thinking of these hotels..
help me choose.
a. Sunroute plaza tokyo
b. tokyo bay maihama hotel
c. hotel tokyu

getting my nieces and nephews over there for their belated birthday treats!

Ok..guess i have blogged enough. valentines nt sure if i can come back, but if baby asks me..i will consider..+)

no ideas for valentines celebration YET
coz no valentine partner. =(

- cya guys! packing up!!

2009-01-16T21:48:00.002+08:00

valentines... in a month..

i wonder how my valentine will pass this year...

last year spend it with my frens on cable dinner.

tis year..shall stay at home and rot together with my tv set...

2009-01-15T21:55:00.002+08:00

finally, i am back in singapore for quite some time.
2009 is here.
happy new year guys!
went to vivo. it was whole lot of ppl there. no baby to countdown wif me. poor her was stuck in msq for some reasons..felt sorry that i cant fetch her because i was getting a little tired..

cant believe that i actually passed my test! well, true enough stef, studying some did gif me some help. thnks for the mini party.
didnt mean to make xiiaoting cry..ha..but your face just tells me to make u cry.

jean broke up with me finally. as of what i had hoped for?
a sticky gal.
a unreasonable gal?
i dun noe. but i just love to be my father figure for baby, that's all.
i didnt mean to tell her to bug off and stop complaining abt baby's presence.

she is always there.

- 2009 first post.

2008-12-15T02:40:00.002+08:00

my nanny asked me
are you out of love?
are you sick?
are you stressed out?

i don't know what to say but i just feel so tired recently, just chatted with my baby.
SHE IS CRAZY for god's sake! and i think i am going crazy because of her. SHE IS the root of my problems. I think my mind is going blank.
just wanna say

YOU ARE STILL AWESOME AND THE BEST GIRL-FRIEND.

2008-11-29T16:46:00.003+08:00

finish my recent tests.. forget that Bi's birthday is coming.
have been meeting up with frens for dinner and lunch these few weeks. Seems like i have been infected with STM becos of someone who i shall not mention.

I miss her so much even i get to see her.

decided not to think so much about it but i do think that she is very strong to accept whatever it has to come. I regretted that i give up, thinking that she will be with him eventually, what idiot would do nothing. enough of that.
Christmas is coming soon.

presents-Hunting time.

2008-11-07T14:11:00.002+08:00

party was just the same as before. Just as high as it is.
right after i blogged, the gals took my laptop and started to play ard with it. yesterday's party was meant to celebrate the belated birthday of qi. Bought quite a few cartons of hooch and other flavours. xiiaoting was sabo-ed with almost 9bottles. in the end, she started wailing away. we recorded a little of it. we started playing truth or dare, and xiiaoting began crying becos we dare her to go out into the road to do smth..that made her cry.
qi's cake was freaking big for heaven sake! and we ate half of it, the other half is all for his face, butt, and other places.
we played throughout the night. fun but tired.

wed

2008-11-05T22:05:00.000+08:00

people are cramming in my house right now.

party is starting soon. spend the whole day with the party stuffs. and now blogged..

finally blog again. i lost my previous blog. den baby ask me to make a new one. so.. here it is

-dumbit